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I woke up in the middle of the night (freezing)..I had no idea it was going to get this cold. WOW its still cold today. Going from 91 to 50 in a few days it nuts. Time to be watching out for colds to hit again.  I wanted to say hello to everyone. I havnt been on for a little while. Winter time seems to get busy for me. I am still alive and kicking though and the weight is still coming off. A friend of mine on here sent me a message saying she is in her old jeans again!! I am SOOOOOOOO proud of her. She has the most beautiful face I have ever seen on a person and I bet shes going to make it as a model if I can get her to try out!!! YOU KNOW HOW YOU ARE GIRLFRIEND!!!! :)   I will try to get on this week sometime to update my life!!! Talk soon

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Went out all day yesterday looking for a Homecoming Dress for my daughter.  We Drove by a Bridal shop that had 30% off on all their Homecoming gowns..we went inside and good lord how expensive this year..cheapest one was $349.00. I was like hun this is rediculous..she said can I at least try one on just to see what it looks like..I was like ok but I cant afford that and she said I know mom its ok..so she tried on the dress and OMG she looked so PRETTY. My heart felt so empty and I said God why cant you just make these things affordable so kids and parents dont have to struggle.,,I told her to go ahead and go take off the dress so we could finish looking elsewhere and when she turned around I about CRAPPED mypants..there was a tag on the back of the dress for $140.00  My heart started beating really fast and I just wanted to buy it SOOOOOOOO BAD!!! I didnt say anything and when she was in there taking off the dress..the lady came up and said you you can 30% off of that $140..immediate TEARS… I was like heres my money..we will take the dress but hide it under the desk..so she hid it..Shauna came out and we were about to walk out of the door and I said..Hey Shauna arnt you forgetting something..and she said no what..I said your dress…She said OMGGGGGGGGGGG MOM…did you really get me that dress..when I said yes precious its yours, her eyes lit up like fireballs…she was so excited and happy. I ended up paying just $105.00 bucks total for a Brand New Dress that is absolutley perfect on her.  GOD ANSWERED ME, when I talked to him. He knew how much my heart wanted that dress for her. We went and bought her a pretty little pair of sparkley shoes.  When we came home I fixed her hair all up on her head and we took some pics..Has anyone ever been happy and sad at the same time? God thats painful!!! HaHa …chest all hurting and cheeks from wanting to cry..I am a big softy when it comes to my Shauna..light of my WHOLE life. This morning she asked me to curl her hair and she looked at me and said Mom..I bet you still wish I was a baby dont ya..I said with a pause..umm NO hahahha and we started laughing..she said Gee thanks..I said well hell Im ready for you to get the hell out…hahhaha (Jokingly)..I already told her she aint allowed to ever leave me..hell the kids 15 and still pulls my shirttail when she wants something..hahahaha, Im for real..she grabs the back and yanks and says mom can I ….. lol I say no and she wines..cause she knows she get her way with me most the time..but the dress was a total shock because right now money tight tight tight..really bad..but I am so glad that I was able to get that by the grace of god…you can see pics at www.myspace.com/aaronandkandie

This is a letter that I sent to congress..I got a responce back and I had to forward this to other members..we will see what gets done..i bet (NOTHING)..

I live on ******************Ohio right around the corner from *********. This is the bus stop for all the kids in this area. They all have to walk around corners to get to the bus stop. Now, there are more streets than ******** and ours has to be on the corner as to where at least 3 registered sex offenders live. This is WRONG!!! What happens one day when one of out girls or boys come up missing? Who is going to make things right then? If these people are going to be out in this world there needs to be a community in Ohio where they live and it shouldnt be anywhere near a school or bus stops. Bus stops are worse than them being around schools. Who ever made the law against them living a few feet away from school must have not though ..well what about the bus stops..That is the most dangerous place..specially around here. I want something done!! I want these people to not be able to live near our bus stops!!! I sat and waited for the bus tonight and there was this man standing there just hanging around walking in circles and I told my husband. I said OMG whats he doing. He was so high on drugs that if there were kids standing at that bus stop right then, he would have done something to one of them. When he was staggering aroung a cop came by and he took off down the other street really fast so that tells me that he was up to NO good. What steps can we take to get these creeps away from our bus stops or security to sit at the bus stops to protect our children? If these buses are not going to stop at individual homes to pick up these kids, then something needs to be done becaue picking up and dropping off kids 1/2 mile from there homes with sex offenders living in the area is unacceptable!!! Kandie

I have 55 more lbs to go..I am about half way to 115lbs.  I started taking medication for my acid reflux and now I just started dropping weight like crazy and I have no more hearburn.  I feel SOOOOOO much better and I can actually breathe.  My daighter looked at me this morning and said OMG mom look you aint got no stomach…I was like woopwoop.. I also started eating a bread and honey butter sandwhich for breakfast, a small lunch with all food groups, a small dinner with all food groups and two hours before bed I eat another bread and honey butter sandwhich. I only drink one glass of milk a day instead of 4 and I drink 4 glasses of water in between meals.. my swelling has went away.  My feet feel normal. I go on Fridays to the Doctor to check blood pressure and check up. I have done this the last 3 weeks and everything is great. When I reach 140 I am going to go to the Gym and start working out.  I have 30 more lbs to go before I go to the Gym. The Doc says that going to a gym with ALOT of fat, turns fat into muscle and you really dont lose alot of the fat tissue thats why most of the time, you just gain weight again. So I am getting all of my nutrition daily and losing and my blood pressure is back to normal and I am not all bloated and swollen. It is really great. I eat alot of Grapes throughout the day too, usually two or three at a time. I will stop by the fridge on my way to utlity room, grab a few grapes and it really tidys me over. I also started using lemon juice and grape juice and apple juice to add flavor to foods that need a taste instead of using meat tenderizor, or those shaker things. It is amazing what grape juice will do for grilled chicken breast. I only have one pop a week.  Kroger juice is 1.00 a gallon and I drink it instead. So that is where I am still getting some sugar to keep my body satisfied from the sugar crave. I went out last Friday from going to the Doc and since I had lost 10 more lbs I went and got my hair all chopped up. Its really cool. I am use to having it all straight to my butt long. Now it is a little past shoulders and choppy but styled..kids love it. Husband told me how sexy I was. It just made my whole day. :)  Daughter got a job working at KI and shes making 10.00 an hour full time and shes only 15. I was like dang when I started working my first job at 17 I only made $3.25 hour and I had a baby to take care of.  Shes doing so good in school so far. Shes got all A’s and one B+. Shes on the work permit thing where she can work three days a week Mon thru Fri. Shes a Freshman but they put her in two 12th grade classes.  I am so proud of her. I just hope she can stay away from the trouble makers ya know. Its so hard being a parent. Ok enough talk haha I just havnt been on in a while so I am all gabbery..I hope everyone is doing well and I will chat at ya soon. Leave me a message!!! Loves ya, Kandie

I talked to a Doctor yesterday about this virus causing some people to gaine weight and yes it is true.  He is expecting to be one of the first to use the vaccine as soon as it comes out.  He stated that if someone has been thin all their life and hasnt changed eating habits or anything and all of the sudden gains alot of weight for no reason, it could be the virus making water hold in the body.  This is associated with common cold virus and asthma.  The vaccine should be out sometime in 2008.  I am excited to try it. Since weighing a measley 94 to 105 even after having my kiddies, then all the sudden gaining triple that without changing eating habits or anything like that..I am a good candidate to try the vaccine. I have never ever taken pills to lose my weight. I dont even like to take headache pills. Putting things in my body have never been my cup of tea, but..this has been clinically tested through research and Doctors so I think that it gets approved as a vaccine for obesity, I am definatley going to at least give it a try and see what happens.  My husband thinks I am not fat..haha I weight about 170 now. But it keeps fluxuating alot.  He tells me that I put a little meat on my bones so what..but to me its grose and nasty and needs to come off.  I have noticed by keeping records that when I drink water, the next morning I am really swollen and usually am about 5 to 10 lbs heavier than I was when I went to bed. Water just does me no good, it makes me worse. So, the water is stopping today and I am going to drink only non pulp orange juice after 6 instead..see what that does.  I completely stopped drinking Milk. I am suppose to have at least 4 glasses a day with my leg but It has been making me have mucus and ear ache. Since I stopped my ear aches gone and I can wake up without all that crap in my throat and sinus pain… Isn’t life crazy.  Gotta love it.

Ok, has anyone heard anything else about this? I really want to try a shot or a pills or whatever they have come up with for this thing. Since I know I dont over eat and I get plenty of exercise, I am wondering if I have this thing.  If anyone finds out more about this please let me know. Wouldnt it be great to finally put an end to not knowing what the heck your body started doing for no reason..specially when you didnt change anything you have done before..If this really is a virus that some of us have..can you imagine how much they are going to charge for this shot…no one will be able to afford it because so many people will want it and the Government will know that they can abuse us and get what they want for it because desperate people that need help will pay what ever they have to. Get back with me on this..thanks Kandie

Shauna got home on Suunday and teenager island has began again ..( haha).. Im glad shes home though..at least I know shes safe even though she drives me MAD…She actually has been in a decent mood since she got home. Wont listen to anythign I say, but Dad told her to do something last night after I told her 8 times and she ignored me, he told her and we woke up this morning and it was done  ..plus she had done some other things..she must be wanting something ..lololol  Think she wants pizza night with a friend (male)..wink wink…he came over last night and stayed for about 6 hours but they are just FRIENDS..thats what she says..and she is in between staying with a boyfriend right now..hummm I hope she stays with her boyfriend now and this fella that was here last night..is just a FRIEND and stays that way..nice guy, but not for her..(Mothers intuition)..I am wanting to cook something really great for Saturdays dinner.. any suggestions? I need it to be really good. I thought about some kind of  boiled shrimp.

Oh..did you all read the news headliner this morning??? They think the obesity could be caused by a virus for some people…so all of us who were always thin all of our lives, then all the sudden just gained weight for no reason..without changing the way we eat..its possible that we have this virus and it is associated with the cold virus. Which everyone that I have talked to on here that is overweight and they do not overeat..have had congestive chest and breathing problems..humm could be true huh..I was fine and didnt have any asthma problems and then all the sudden Asthma hit me then I gained weight like crazy really fast..and I dont use an enhaler. Its not so bad to where I have to use those all the time. I maybe have to do it once or twice a year but thats it. If anyone hears anything else about this obesity virus and if there is a shot to take or somethung to get rid of it..PLEASE let me know too..thank..Kandie

Ok I have 3 more days until I call the Doctor, Still no period and its now been 10 days. WOOHOOOO I am almost 100% sure now but I am not rushing the water here. I am keeping calm and making myself wait it out before I go through that heartache of the Dr telling me, no hun I am sorry your not pregnant. I would rather start on my own and see it rather than hear that from someone.  I know that sounds silly,but when you are wanting something so bad and it doesnt happen time after time, it hurts really bad. Patience is my virtue and I am waiting until Friday before I call for appointment. Another (mind over matter) deal.  Did I tell everyone that we took a Dat trip Saturday on the bus to West Virginia and played Bingo there at Redman. It was really fun. # hour drive one way and it took 6 to get there with all the stops but it was nice. There is a trip October 19th to CT. The jackpot there is ..are you ready for this..$250,000. That is the cover all jackpot.  All regular games are worth $15,000 each. Jesus can u imagine that. It cost $450.00 a person but that includes everything..the whole trip. We also get to play at two casinos with that price. The hotel is a Hilton Hotel so you know they are nice too. We are so excited. I want to go so bad. Wouldnt that be wonderful to find out I am for sure pregnant and go and win all that money..my baby would be all set on everything. Remember Its been 15 years since I have had a live birth. I have to start all over on everything.  My husband is so excited. he comes home and talks to my tummy all the time. Hes going to be heart broken if I am not pregnant again. So, God if you are listening through this, please dont let him down again..hes been through to much in his life and hes such a good man, give him a child pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..Im begging for us to have one…I go Thursday to have this cyst taken off my thumb. God thats gonna hurt.  For now though, Im off of here..Im gonna go watch the news then my CBS soups..:) I talk to you all later, Kandie

Ok..now its really long…Got a message from Shauna a few days ago that they are staying in Maryland until this weekend. I was all ready for her to come home and she pops this one at me..dang kids haha.. I am proud of her though..she still have $6.00 of what I gave her to take for the week…haha so shes done really good and they are paying for everything else so shes all good to go.  Shew bought her some school clothes there so that is a plus and shows some responsibility.  Oh and I am now 8 days late…YES thats right..8 days late!!!!!!!!!!  I am praying its not just stress..I have always had stress and I am never ever ever late unless I am the big P..which I pray that I am so muchhhhhhhhhhh. Please everyone pray with me that we are with baby..we have been trying for so long..Im going to go take my hr nap, im pooped..love everyone and talk to you soon..Kandie